Being pregnant with Mackenzie was scary, she was my first daughter, I was young, naive, and didn't know what to expect. Being pregnant with Maddie was exciting! I knew what to expect, I knew what I wanted to do differently (a more girly room, for example) and knew that it wasn't as scary as I thought the first time. So what if they're going to stick a HUGE needle in my back to numb me? It doesn't hurt, no worries! I was older too, which helped. An imature 17 year old handles life a lot different than a slightly mature 20 year old.
Having her was wonderful! Unlike the rush to the OR with Mackenzie, I slowly walked into the hospital the day I was scheduled to have Maddie, suitcase in tow, and a few hours later, I was sitting in my hospital room holding this sweet, innocent, beautiful little child. She was little to begin with, only 6 pounds, 1 ounce. When we left the hospital she only weighed 5 pounds, and was jaundiced. The first week of her life Doug and I took turns sleeping in the recliner holding her while she was wrapped in her billy blanket and glowing like a little